Out of all the ships I've rooted for in my writing journey, EreMika is the one that really pushed me to think outside the box.
Whenever I start writing about Mikasa and Eren, I can't help but think about the depth of their story. This anime show really messed me up. I still can't get over what went down, especially when Eren bit the dust out of nowhere. The story of this ship left me with some serious emotional scars.
I had this moment where I was like, "Hey, maybe I can finally create a fanfic for them!" It was 1 o'clock in the morning and I was typing out all these scenarios I wanted for these two. But every time I watch the part where Mikasa's crying at Eren's grave, I end up crying as well. I think getting so attached to the characters in this story has really changed my perspective and made me more empathetic, even though they're just fictional.
I've been reading all the wild theories online about what happened to Mikasa after Eren's death, and it's a total mess! There's so much information and debates going on in the fandom that it can get really overwhelming. It's hard to know what's actually true and what's just rumors. Some of that stuff is just for attention. For clout. It's crazy how the ship arguments in this fanbase never seem to stop. I've decided to take a break from this community for a while to help keep my mental health in check. Actually, it might be a pretty long break.
I've never really been one to jump into the intense discussions about AOT ships like EreMika, but what I have realized is how crucial it is to have a supportive and understanding group of people by my side.
It's very important for me to be mindful of the content I consume and the people I should engage with - it really makes a big difference. I always make sure to keep an eye on who I'm following on social media. Are they toxic towards other fans? Do they frequently rant about negativity? I need to think about whether these people will give me peace of mind once I let myself become part of their circle.
I'm trying my best to avoid being trigger-happy and impulsive these days. I've also learned not to follow a random person or fan artist just because they're popular and well-known in the fandom. Yes at first, I might enjoy seeing their support for the same ship and anime I love. But after a while, I might start to notice that hanging out with them can be a real energy drain, especially when they're in a bad mood and bringing negativity to the community. I gotta think about how being around them affects my mental health - it's a lot to deal with. So now I just try to stay positive and keep an eye out for anything that might mess with my mental well-being. I mostly just stick to non-toxic EreMika pages or accounts that are all about this ship. It's all fanarts and fanfiction all day long - that's just what I like to see! A safe space where I don't have to deal with any random rants.
Eren and Mikasa Fanfiction:
Even though I've been taking advice from my favorite authors, I'm still having a tough time staying on track with finishing that fanfiction for Eren and Mikasa. People who know me in this fandom can totally see me putting in the effort to get this story out there. I really appreciate their patience and understanding while they wait for me to post my Eremika fanfic. As of 2024, I'm still figuring out the best way to show my love for this ship - it's a journey!
I'm thinking about trying out some tips from other authors, like starting with short one-shots, to try and beat this writer's block I have with Eren and Mikasa. I don't want my Eremika fanfic to feel rushed either, so this method lets me really take my time and craft my stories with care. For now, I'm just chilling and getting my fix of Eremika fanfics on AO3. It's so cool to see all the creativity and get inspired by other fans' ideas.